Christina, my ever beloved wife.
My spirit, my inspiration and my strength. It was 4 years ago, Sunny Saturday
afternoon when we had our first glance through common friend Christine. I never
thought that very first moment we had would start a very fruitful relationship
between you and me. You caught my attention when you were looking for a cigar
and asking me if I'm smoking. Which I just quit smoking. At first, I thought you
are the snobbish type of person and would not look into people like me. I knew
at that very moment I saw an angel sent by God; An angel who would watch over me
and take care of me for the rest of my life.
Christina your name is music to my ears. Christina your name I canít get out of
my head. Those were the things that keep reminding me of you.
Christina died of incurable illness of Liver infection. For 4 years of
struggling in this illness Christina maintained her strength and faith. And
because of this illness Christina risked not to have a child from me. I
understand how she felt on having our own child since Christina was under
medication and we don't want the child to suffer from any complications. I'm
still proud of Christina that she made a brave decision about this.
Christina is a tough woman. I never heard Christina complain inspite of pain and
danger. Christina was still able to comfort friends and family through her
loving smiles and compassionate bright ideas. Christina opened many hearts and
soul for the Lord including me. Christina left a lot of loving memories on my
heart that I will hold and remember forever.
Every Valentine's day, I make it a point that Christina always gets flowers and
a gift from me. I sent it either to her office or in the house. I remember the
first time I sent her one, Christina was expecting it to arrive on her office,
and Christina went home disappointed. To her surprise when Christina got home
there was a bunch of flowers and a big bear waiting for her. Christina flooded
me with Thank you messages on my phone. I want Christina to be very happy every
hearts day. However, this yearís Valentine's Day I was not able to send her one
because I canít seem to accept that my Christina is lifeless and she will be in
God's kingdom soon. Christina you are now flooded with your favorite flowers
this is not just coming from me but from all the people who are dear to you.
When I was away for a business trip Christina canít stand being alone. I heard
her cry every night. Christina misses me a lot and itís hard for her to let a
day pass without me beside her. And because of this Christina was able to travel
alone just to be with me. I may say that this is the happiest moment of
Christina's life. Christina was able to serve me well and at the same time
Christina was able to meet her favorite cartoon character Mickey Mouse in
person. And now in this time, I will be missing her so much. My life is now
Christina prepared me in this life journey to be strong and mature. We canít
explain why things happen. The only thing I'm holding to is the Bible teaching
that God causes all things to work together and causes all good to those who
love God. Christinaís illness has a reason.
Today we mourn for Christina's loss. However, we rejoice for her new life with
the Lord. Farewell my loving Christina. We will be seeing each other soon. Love
you so much.